must

must get me into check-up
I'm having this regular chest-pains and stomach ache.
woooh! what is happening to me?

Can there ever really be a just system?

They say in small actions results into bigger actions and larger results. True enough the question hangs to my head with all the contributions people are doing in their own way could it really help change the system? Or is it just a superficial act? When you are able to educate people to segregate their wastes does this contribute to changing the system? Or it doesn't do anything the poor remains poor, the peasants remains landless, and women still experiences oppression and violence. I don't know the answer. Or this are all just principles abstract ideas that will remain abstract.

Hoping to save myself from this too much entanglement and confusion. Would I want to serve the country on my own way or will I commit myself to the organizations who says they are the ones changing the system.

But I sincerely believe on the small things done is and will always be equal to change of the system. Will I prove it I will but not today and not anytime soon. For now I will just continue thinking if I will make the right decision in my life. Take choice on what career would I take. So difficult and confusion continues to settle in my brain.

Will I ever be an instrument of change?