pakiramdam

masama ang aking pakiramdam dahil sa ako ay merong sakit.
mei inflammation ang aking left ear kayo di ako nakakarinig.
meron ding matinding ubo.
baradong ilong kaya di makahinga.
magaling magaling ako ay di magaling.
well my health is failing me and I feel the tug of defeat.
Ayun sana maging mabuti rin ako.
Sa next time pagkagising ko okie na ako.

Tapos lately puro na lang nightmare.....
Hay iba na talaga.

modesty

disgrace
about
my grace
nothing seems right
at this
well lit up night
i can't be you
sporting
a manic spree
broken
pieces
that are
up
for
tease
.

I just read a book that made me terribly miss you.

bad trip

di kami tuloy sa batanes.
hmmmm.
depressing
spirits high just crash hard.
well.
badtrip asian spirit.

why i cry by the magnetic fields

All the summer days
Where we used to play
Walking hand in hand
Castles in the sand
So you said goodnight
But you meant goodbye
Now our love has died
This is why I cry
From the madding crowd
Pointing up at clouds
Summer turned to fall
Pictures on the wall

another new post

Octoer 21, 2008
1:05 A.M. (madaling araw)

I finally got to read the comic book WASTED. It was a highly recommended reading by our Philosophy teacher. The story does create a big impact on the reader. As I read the last chapter tears just stream down my eyes. The letter of Eric (the main character of the book) has such honesty (that I want to experience). I cried because I remember the love I have inside of me. I remember my love that cannot be measured. A love that has given its all.

It is sad that certain things just end. It is sad how things change. Certain feelings are not felt anymore. It is sad.

I still have this huge love in me and I am trying to wrap it in one small bundle and throw it away. Whenever I think about this love that I have I just get lonely that all this love is wasted.

I'll read again the comic book and probably cry again (hard). Maybe this will help me vanish the feelings.

The story is very appealing especially to teenagers and young adults. We could relate because it does show or tell us a certain part of our life (feeling this way and that), a real human condition. It shows how love can make you crazy. Love does make people crazy.

Go read WASTED for yourself and experience the "feeling."

Goodnight night.

I'll share with you the poems of sadness by different poets. Share a line from a poem of Pablo Neruda: "Love is so short , forgetting is so long".

Truly I feel this way about someone I love immensely.

Hope we forget fast so the pain would not lurk too long.
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It is hard to accept the truth, that is why even to ourselves we always lie because truth really does hurt.

"and the truth is I am still lying to myself about the reason why I am here"
and it hurts

a sad empty hole.

pleasure in pain

As I recall what people I know used to say that my family is "cool", they are wrong it has become rotten in some way. I feel unlucky sometimes to have a family like mine. The things that are happening to us are becoming worse as the days pass by and the sad thing is that I don't care. My feeling towards a certain matter is cold. There was too much hurt. Hearts are deeply lacerated. Weird that this is happening when I am already at this age ("better when you get older").

Rotten sadness in my lacerated heart.

I'll ignore this and I'll try finding pleasure in this pervasive pain.

Goodnight night.

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pwede na

kanina nakita ko ang buwan
maganda talaga
nakita ang bilog nitong hugis
matingkad na puti
at ang mga uka na pinalalalim
ang kanyang ganda....
kung sa araw na ito ay mamatay
ako, okie lang
mamatay akong masaya pagkat
nakita ko ang magandang buwan.

sticking it

While I was studying and staying at Baguio what I always do is write and read.
I've made a lot of list, endless list of different things...

1. List of what I would like to do for summer
2. List of books I want to read
3. List of music I want to download
4. List of things I want to buy for myself and other people
5. Grocery list
6. List of movies I want too watch
7. List of reasons why I love Arvin
8. List of places I want to go before I die
9. List of things to do before I die
10. List of favorite quotes
11. List of favorite poems
12. List of what I miss
13. List of what I have to do for that certain day
14. List of the things I would like to say
15. List of how much I spent on that day
16. List of books I should buy
17. List for everything

A list pretty much for everything....
I wish I had the luxury of time and money for the lists to be fulfilled.

sinisipag ako magtype

sige susulat ako tungkol saan?

sa kasayahan na wala ng pasok pero meron pang isang requirement
sa kalungkutan dahil lagi na lang ako mag isa dito sa bahay at kung saang lugar man ako
sa kasakitan ng physical dahil sumasakit nanaman ang tiyan ko
sa kasakitan emotional dahil dahil dahil dahil

tungkol saan?

sa my idea of heaven
sa all i want
sa lahat ng kanta
sa can't take my eyes off you

tungkol saan?

sa lupa
sa langit
sa ulap
sa araw
sa tubig
sa puno
sa buwan
sa cute little white bunnies
sa otter
sa panda banana

siguro tungkol sakin
hindi bat di na lang tungkol sayo....

waiting for you

song by Ben Harper

Waiting For You

I' ve been waiting for you
I' ve been waiting for you
Never found enything else to do
But waiting for you

I' ve been calling your name
I' ve been calling your name
Never found anything else to say
Nothing to say

You can kill a lot of time if you really want put your mind do it
Leave it all behind if you never wanna go through it

I keep hearing your name
I keep hearing your name
Nothing else sounds the same
As hearing your name

You can kill a lot of time if you really put your mind to it
Or leave it all behind and never ever go through it

I' ve been hoping for you
Keep hoping for you
What else can I do
But keep hoping for you?

You can kill a lot of time if you really put your mind to it
Or leave it all behind and never ever go through it

We can kill a lot and never really have to go through it

What else can I do
But keep hoping for you?

-o)-

anybody there?
anyone to talk to me?

tiwala

i want to trust my mom that she is not doing anything bad
she will not be home to night..
texted "drank lots of alcohol"
nice one...