may parating na bagyo...waaah! takbo.. itago ang mga tabo...
by isya
Saturday, November 19, 2005
insight
Deep in my thoughts
I have this anching heart
that wails and cry everytime.
No definite reason can keep this
heart still alive...
I don't really know what I am
talking about again..
I have nothing in my mind
not even a decent word to add in my
collection.
All I could say is that i am buried
deep in a mound of soil
unable to break free and cry for help.
Somebody is holding me back and keeping
my back stucked in the cold dumped ground.
My mouth is gag with live worms
stuffed in my mouth wich hinders me from
crying my heart out.
Eyes blocked with darkness that causes me to
naturally go blind
stopping me from seeing my love.
I have this anching heart
that wails and cry everytime.
No definite reason can keep this
heart still alive...
I don't really know what I am
talking about again..
I have nothing in my mind
not even a decent word to add in my
collection.
All I could say is that i am buried
deep in a mound of soil
unable to break free and cry for help.
Somebody is holding me back and keeping
my back stucked in the cold dumped ground.
My mouth is gag with live worms
stuffed in my mouth wich hinders me from
crying my heart out.
Eyes blocked with darkness that causes me to
naturally go blind
stopping me from seeing my love.
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
.....youngblood....
I am a fourth year high school student applying for university. All of the forms, essays, and applications cause me to realize, my life is about to change! I will soon have new experiences to add to those I’ve already enjoyed.
My 16 years have provided a lot experiences and accomplishments that have helped me define myself and that have helped in being a human being. I would say that growing up in the society of people who are activist was a different experience and unique memories invade my mind whenever I reflect on this. I always tagged along with my parents at their side or sometimes they carried me on their backs. These were experiences that opened my eyes to what the real world looks like: a world full of struggle and work that should be done. At an early age I got acquainted with people who are workers in factories who are fighting for wage hikes and against the unfair treatment and ills that need to be voiced out. At the age of five to seven I learned the chants and songs in every rally. At that age I thought that all these things they were doing were useless. What is the sense of doing things like that? Does it change their status in life? I grew up asking a lot of questions like why are there growing numbers of people who don’t eat? Are there any solutions to these problems? Why are there a lot children in the street that aren’t going to school? Questions filled my mind and as I’ve grown I haven’t forgotten this attitude of being curious of what the world is about. What things lie beyond that line? There is much to feel and touch in the mass of people taking a stand on what they believe and what they know is right for themselves. These activities and questions had the biggest impact at the early stage of my childhood. I wouldn’t be who I am today without this important part of growing up.
Some of these experiences and adventures I consider true accomplishments, because I accomplished them without fear. As political activist and NGO leaders my parents never earned much money but they got to travel a lot, and they often took me with them. Climbing mountains and caving are high accomplishments I have done from an early age. Climbing Mt. Banahaw at the age of ten, caving at the age of twelve, climbing mountains in Mountain Province at the age of one while being carried by my Nanay and Tatay, and climbing Mt. Dalagang Bukid, Mt. Manalmon, Mt. Manabu at the age of fourteen with the school hiking club. Such accomplishments helped me to become more conscious and aware of our environment. Recently I swam with largest fish in the whole world, the Whale Shark, commonly called Butanding. Through these experiences I have appreciated more the beauty of our country. I have come to appreciate the blessing God has granted us and I realize these living things and places may not be here forever. I realize that as part of this of this wonderful beauty I should also learn how to respect and take care of it. I have to do something even in my own simple way.
My blog is also an accomplishment for me. Writing and poetry are true friends who I can always turn to with my emotions – anger, happiness, infatuation, despair, sadness, depression, love, regrets, dreams, imaginations, desires – and the needs my heart, mind and feeling. It is food for the hungry soul inside me and the raging spirit that wants to be set free. It was an accomplishment because I learned to use the tags and tips that were taught to us by our computer teacher. If not for that I would have to go with the traditional designs.
Having friends is one the most important experiences for me even if it’s hard for me to build and strengthen them. I don’t have a problem with being alone. Anyway, I am also a chat kid of the internet and I got hooked on it when I was still in grade six many years ago. It is addicting and can be very bad for people like me. It was taking much of my time and taking a huge amount of money from my parent’s pocket. I have stopped my addiction. To tell you the truth, I have ceased random chatting. I just use it as a connection with my classmates from elementary and those who are not in our school now.
Of course my life would not be complete if I wouldn’t mention the gigs and concerts I have attended which take up a big space in my life. That is how much I love music. I was even a member of a band before I knew how to play my instrument. They still decided to take me; I don’t know why. I got to watch big events like Fete de la musique one time. My band mate had this special pass for artists because her mom is an artist and was performing at the show. It was such fun even if the concert was cancelled because of heavy rains. We still got to watch the other bands. I got to watch the Pulp Summer Slam which was also this year’s biggest event. People really saved for this event. I was so shocked when I got to the venue. There were a lot of people. Golly I was doubly shocked when I got inside Amoranto Stadium. I suddenly remembered the saying “di mahulgan ng karayom”, everybody was wearing black, and the smell of sweat rose in the air. That encounter was truly different and I’m glad that I did attended that event.
I feel so happy and so alive when I attend concerts and gigs. It is like I’m a different person but in the body of Isya (my nickname). There is the feeling of freedom and independence when I attended these kind of events. There is also the awareness that I can do this and do that but at the same time be responsible which is fun and exciting. There are other feelings that cannot be explained. It is maybe the “teen spirit” alive in my blood. Also, there are a lot of lessons to be drawn from these experiences. After one concert or any other concert I noticed a lot of trash, namely plastic bottles, plastic wrapping, and millions of cigarette butts (That is killing me. Please stop smoking people. Try helping other people and start with yourself if you smoke.). Really, is this the only thing we youth can do? Why didn’t the organizer think of a better idea on how we youth and not so young people can do something good while watching and enjoying ourselves? Anyway I have to write these comments and suggestions to the organizer. As my Nanay says, this generation is very different compared to her generation and she believes that there is something about this generation that will change our country (hopefully). She also said as I was campaigning for the secretary position at are student council, “taking responsibility isn’t all about you having to do the job, it is also about having fun.” This was true, but unfortunately I didn’t win the election. Too bad, but that was alright. I can still say that I tried my best to be part of the council.
These are some highlights of my life up to know. These are the experiences I realize have a great impact on me and that helped me define myself. These accomplishments and experiences have helped me find my identity, to help me know what I want to do in the future, what my profession will be, and what I want to do for the rest of my life. I have decided that I want to be a teacher, and I have decided that I will do my job here in the Philippines; I have decided to live and die here no matter what happens. I have decided to take this profession because this is what is needed most by our country. I have decided to take this profession because it requires passion and love for teaching which I think I have. I have decided to help my country rather than leave it amidst poverty and political crisis. There are a lot of changes to bring about and I want to be part of those changes. For me there are a lot of things still to happen but for now this is what I have decided. I know that there are still millions of decisions to make in the future, for me, and for the millions of other 16-years-olds in our country.
My 16 years have provided a lot experiences and accomplishments that have helped me define myself and that have helped in being a human being. I would say that growing up in the society of people who are activist was a different experience and unique memories invade my mind whenever I reflect on this. I always tagged along with my parents at their side or sometimes they carried me on their backs. These were experiences that opened my eyes to what the real world looks like: a world full of struggle and work that should be done. At an early age I got acquainted with people who are workers in factories who are fighting for wage hikes and against the unfair treatment and ills that need to be voiced out. At the age of five to seven I learned the chants and songs in every rally. At that age I thought that all these things they were doing were useless. What is the sense of doing things like that? Does it change their status in life? I grew up asking a lot of questions like why are there growing numbers of people who don’t eat? Are there any solutions to these problems? Why are there a lot children in the street that aren’t going to school? Questions filled my mind and as I’ve grown I haven’t forgotten this attitude of being curious of what the world is about. What things lie beyond that line? There is much to feel and touch in the mass of people taking a stand on what they believe and what they know is right for themselves. These activities and questions had the biggest impact at the early stage of my childhood. I wouldn’t be who I am today without this important part of growing up.
Some of these experiences and adventures I consider true accomplishments, because I accomplished them without fear. As political activist and NGO leaders my parents never earned much money but they got to travel a lot, and they often took me with them. Climbing mountains and caving are high accomplishments I have done from an early age. Climbing Mt. Banahaw at the age of ten, caving at the age of twelve, climbing mountains in Mountain Province at the age of one while being carried by my Nanay and Tatay, and climbing Mt. Dalagang Bukid, Mt. Manalmon, Mt. Manabu at the age of fourteen with the school hiking club. Such accomplishments helped me to become more conscious and aware of our environment. Recently I swam with largest fish in the whole world, the Whale Shark, commonly called Butanding. Through these experiences I have appreciated more the beauty of our country. I have come to appreciate the blessing God has granted us and I realize these living things and places may not be here forever. I realize that as part of this of this wonderful beauty I should also learn how to respect and take care of it. I have to do something even in my own simple way.
My blog is also an accomplishment for me. Writing and poetry are true friends who I can always turn to with my emotions – anger, happiness, infatuation, despair, sadness, depression, love, regrets, dreams, imaginations, desires – and the needs my heart, mind and feeling. It is food for the hungry soul inside me and the raging spirit that wants to be set free. It was an accomplishment because I learned to use the tags and tips that were taught to us by our computer teacher. If not for that I would have to go with the traditional designs.
Having friends is one the most important experiences for me even if it’s hard for me to build and strengthen them. I don’t have a problem with being alone. Anyway, I am also a chat kid of the internet and I got hooked on it when I was still in grade six many years ago. It is addicting and can be very bad for people like me. It was taking much of my time and taking a huge amount of money from my parent’s pocket. I have stopped my addiction. To tell you the truth, I have ceased random chatting. I just use it as a connection with my classmates from elementary and those who are not in our school now.
Of course my life would not be complete if I wouldn’t mention the gigs and concerts I have attended which take up a big space in my life. That is how much I love music. I was even a member of a band before I knew how to play my instrument. They still decided to take me; I don’t know why. I got to watch big events like Fete de la musique one time. My band mate had this special pass for artists because her mom is an artist and was performing at the show. It was such fun even if the concert was cancelled because of heavy rains. We still got to watch the other bands. I got to watch the Pulp Summer Slam which was also this year’s biggest event. People really saved for this event. I was so shocked when I got to the venue. There were a lot of people. Golly I was doubly shocked when I got inside Amoranto Stadium. I suddenly remembered the saying “di mahulgan ng karayom”, everybody was wearing black, and the smell of sweat rose in the air. That encounter was truly different and I’m glad that I did attended that event.
I feel so happy and so alive when I attend concerts and gigs. It is like I’m a different person but in the body of Isya (my nickname). There is the feeling of freedom and independence when I attended these kind of events. There is also the awareness that I can do this and do that but at the same time be responsible which is fun and exciting. There are other feelings that cannot be explained. It is maybe the “teen spirit” alive in my blood. Also, there are a lot of lessons to be drawn from these experiences. After one concert or any other concert I noticed a lot of trash, namely plastic bottles, plastic wrapping, and millions of cigarette butts (That is killing me. Please stop smoking people. Try helping other people and start with yourself if you smoke.). Really, is this the only thing we youth can do? Why didn’t the organizer think of a better idea on how we youth and not so young people can do something good while watching and enjoying ourselves? Anyway I have to write these comments and suggestions to the organizer. As my Nanay says, this generation is very different compared to her generation and she believes that there is something about this generation that will change our country (hopefully). She also said as I was campaigning for the secretary position at are student council, “taking responsibility isn’t all about you having to do the job, it is also about having fun.” This was true, but unfortunately I didn’t win the election. Too bad, but that was alright. I can still say that I tried my best to be part of the council.
These are some highlights of my life up to know. These are the experiences I realize have a great impact on me and that helped me define myself. These accomplishments and experiences have helped me find my identity, to help me know what I want to do in the future, what my profession will be, and what I want to do for the rest of my life. I have decided that I want to be a teacher, and I have decided that I will do my job here in the Philippines; I have decided to live and die here no matter what happens. I have decided to take this profession because this is what is needed most by our country. I have decided to take this profession because it requires passion and love for teaching which I think I have. I have decided to help my country rather than leave it amidst poverty and political crisis. There are a lot of changes to bring about and I want to be part of those changes. For me there are a lot of things still to happen but for now this is what I have decided. I know that there are still millions of decisions to make in the future, for me, and for the millions of other 16-years-olds in our country.
school
marami na namang nangyari sa school..
yung iba nakakatuwa at yung iba naman
ay nakakainis...
nakakatuwa talaga ang mga magulang lalo
na ang mga nanay.
siguro makulit talaga sila pag-kasama
nila yung mga anak nila..
pero alam niyo di naman sila ganun
sobrang concern pa nga sila
sa mga anak nila.
mahal na mahal nga talaga nila tayo.
may mga di naman kanais nais na mga nangyari.
di mo talaga alam kung anong tunay na ugali ng mga
tao hanggang sa hindimo pa sila nakikilala
mabuti.
Minsan kilala mo na nga may mga
tinatago pa palang masamang ugali o kaya mabuti.
Hindi mo talaga alam
kailangan magingat-ingat...
Masaya naman ang nakaraang linggo...
Astig yung pinahiram sakin ni J.N.
buti bumili siya ng Incubus na DVD
hahaha ang sama eh nu....
tapos pinanuod ko uli yung sa Led Zep.
wala astig parin talaga sila..
Excited na ako sa mga susunod na araw
hindi ko alam kong bakit pero
maganda sigurong maging masaya
at excited sa mga araw na parating
para positive at laging plus.
hahahaah...
nakakatuwa yung storya namin sa short film namin.
yung matagal ko ng sinusulat na istorya
ang last time ko at ni_____..
hahaha..
ang pagpapaalam ngyari sa short film na ito.
Alam ko na ang gagawin
nailarawan ko na ang lahat sa aking isipan.
Sana maging matagumpay ang aming short film
tulad ng aming music video.
Haaaaaaaaah nakakatuwa ang ganda talaga ng buhok
nung college na yun nakakaasar
kaya ko lang naman siyang naging krash eh
dahil sa kanyang mapangakit na buhok.
Hair power..
tapos nakakatuwa ang ganda nung suot niya kahapon
give peace a chance(naks ano yan progrssive ba? di ata)
BAsta ang ganda talaga ng buhok niya tapos tapos tapos....
Hay nakakatuwa..
kala ko di ko na siya makikita akala ko
graduate na siya hehehe...pero di pala!
Madali lang ito
maganda lang yung ganito dahil
nasisiyahan ako pagnakikita ko siya.
yung iba nakakatuwa at yung iba naman
ay nakakainis...
nakakatuwa talaga ang mga magulang lalo
na ang mga nanay.
siguro makulit talaga sila pag-kasama
nila yung mga anak nila..
pero alam niyo di naman sila ganun
sobrang concern pa nga sila
sa mga anak nila.
mahal na mahal nga talaga nila tayo.
may mga di naman kanais nais na mga nangyari.
di mo talaga alam kung anong tunay na ugali ng mga
tao hanggang sa hindimo pa sila nakikilala
mabuti.
Minsan kilala mo na nga may mga
tinatago pa palang masamang ugali o kaya mabuti.
Hindi mo talaga alam
kailangan magingat-ingat...
Masaya naman ang nakaraang linggo...
Astig yung pinahiram sakin ni J.N.
buti bumili siya ng Incubus na DVD
hahaha ang sama eh nu....
tapos pinanuod ko uli yung sa Led Zep.
wala astig parin talaga sila..
Excited na ako sa mga susunod na araw
hindi ko alam kong bakit pero
maganda sigurong maging masaya
at excited sa mga araw na parating
para positive at laging plus.
hahahaah...
nakakatuwa yung storya namin sa short film namin.
yung matagal ko ng sinusulat na istorya
ang last time ko at ni_____..
hahaha..
ang pagpapaalam ngyari sa short film na ito.
Alam ko na ang gagawin
nailarawan ko na ang lahat sa aking isipan.
Sana maging matagumpay ang aming short film
tulad ng aming music video.
Haaaaaaaaah nakakatuwa ang ganda talaga ng buhok
nung college na yun nakakaasar
kaya ko lang naman siyang naging krash eh
dahil sa kanyang mapangakit na buhok.
Hair power..
tapos nakakatuwa ang ganda nung suot niya kahapon
give peace a chance(naks ano yan progrssive ba? di ata)
BAsta ang ganda talaga ng buhok niya tapos tapos tapos....
Hay nakakatuwa..
kala ko di ko na siya makikita akala ko
graduate na siya hehehe...pero di pala!
Madali lang ito
maganda lang yung ganito dahil
nasisiyahan ako pagnakikita ko siya.
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